~AND THE REASON IS YOU~

~ ME NO WANT TO BE IN WV ANYMORE~

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 01:17:15 GMT

So I got in this morning and im already tired of being here.. I miss my Heather and I miss Kari shit man I even miss Stephanie and thats sad.. My mom has done nothing but constantly bitch since ive been here....

mhmmm

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 01:50:19 GMT

what up motha fackos!!! Ok let start out at yesterday well to make a long story short,i had a 3 sum with heather an kari. Heather just had the lower part an kari had every thing eles but i dont need to get in to detals because people who "say" they want me out of there life dont wanna read this even know they really shouldent be reading it any way! an then Kari was high an gave me a lap dance! it was niiccee!! so after that i walked kari home an we made a little "pit stop" at theis benches behind the libray, an then had another little hold up in front of karis house! Kari is tryin to spice things up a bit so that nice was mhmmm nice!
so today i went over to Karis an we just chilled for awail i meet her parents an her sister an even the grandparents came over! so 1st we went to the park an played in this tree house thing in the woods. An then we chilling the the front porch for awail an then Kari cut my hair! an then we went an got some ice cream!! an then we started watchin the lion king 2 lol an Kari called heather for like the 10th time an she finily answered an wanted me to go back to her house cause she was bored. So it was a cool day we had fun i love Kari soo much!

Oh yea....Jess, dont comment this or no more of my entrys for that matter! if you want me out of your life, trust me i want you out of mine too. So stop reading my journal all together, your a pain in my ass an your a "waste of space" Well...I think im just ganna take you off my friends list This is the last im talkin about you in my journal

I love Kari Elizabeth

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 16:49:54 GMT

I LOVE KARI!!!mhmm lol i got bored i got to get ready to walk back over to the house in a few cause they are going to kick me off these computers..... then when i get home imma call kari and see if she will come out side and play with me lol woohoo..oh yeah heather got really drunk last night and me her val and Ooghe went and played on the swings at the grade school... yeah yeah im a dork but kari loves me so thats all that matters....
I thought kari broke up with me the other day so i cried in front of her but i told her i put spit in my eyes lol i didnt want her to know i was crying but she did anyhow... It feels good to be able to hold someone and know they arent thinking of someone else or at least it seems they arent thinking of someone else... it all feels like a dream and im just waiting to wake up or something but hey if it is a dream i dont ever want to wake up.. I cant even try to explain how much I love kari because the words wont come out.. She thinks im confused but im not I know shes the one I want...but anyways enough rambling on about that.... Imma go and walk back to the house and call my love.. LATA..

AMBER LOVES KARI!!!...

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 16:20:59 GMT

Im sitting at this god forsaken library waiting on my aim to load up so i can see if tasha is online to get her to call billy joe for me.. Jessy doesnt like kari at all but i dont care.. Kari makes me happy and thats all that matters to me is that she makes me happy.. Then jessy tells me that courtney is cuter than me well sure if you think people that have an eating disorder is cute than power to you.. Its just the thought that ive moved on from her that makes her angry... but im going i just wanted to update to let everyone know im still alive just been really busy oh and yeah i got my lip pierced mhmm.. im out..

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 16:46:55 GMT

NOOKIE NOOKIE NOOKIE!!!

<3

too bad for jealous people!

:Þ

^_____^

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 00:26:21 GMT

I love Kari <3 An i love heather! im ganna stay here forever hoes! an if you dont like it im sorry! :-\ lol

heather amber an kari

My girl <3

hehehe

my best friend (here) ^__^

I love her!

awww lol

an oh yea guys i have pink hair now lol im im gettin my lip pierced

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 22:54:56 GMT

So i went and hung out in kari's yard with her for alittle while today cause her mom wouldnt let her come over and all that so i just hung out there.. we talked for alittle bit about random shit about what makes us happy and all of that goodness.. And there for the longest time i didnt think i could ever be happy cause i was always either upset or depressed over something but now its like im smiling all the time.. for the past month or two ive been really down and didnt want to trust anyone because ive been hurt so many times.... Then I like hung out with kari and alot has changed alot of feelings have developed in a short amount of time and its weird because there for the longest time all Ive known was jessy..
So now its like Im trying to open up to Kari and take a risk of getting hurt im not saying she'd hurt me intentionally but you know her feelings can change over time.. Not saying that there going too.. Anyways.. I love her thats all i know for sure and she does make me very happy because she doesnt try to change me or control me.. But there is alot more to her that makes me love her than just that..

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 17:20:35 GMT

ive been in Michigan for about a week maybe and so far its been a pretty good trip i have like this kickass girlfriend that i hang out with constantly.. I have the greatest friend ever like seriously im soo much happier here than ive been anywhere else.. but it all seems to good to be true like im waiting for something to go wrong since my karma sucks ass and all like im expecting to get hurt and i kinda distance myself from people to keep that from happening and I know i shouldnt do that.. oh well we'll see what happens..

me and my homes..

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 15:33:50 GMT

~MY WONDERFUL DAY IN PARADISE!~

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 02:08:40 GMT

I GOT NOOKIE ON THE SIDE OF HEATHERS HOUSE!!anyways i dont think im going to go home.. k the end lata..
AMBER <3 KARI..

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 15:52:31 GMT

So ive been out in MI for a couple of days and at first it was dramatic as fuck like seriously...Tiffany kept flipping out on me and all this shit so that had to go i couldnt deal with it...Then me and Heather and Jade went and picked up Kari and she and I fixed things so were together... Even though Tiffany tried to make it so we wouldnt be but hey its all good cause I love kari...
Ive hung out with Kari for the past two days up until like 11 at night which is kick ass... Yesterday was like the greatest day ever MHMM!!!Im suppost to be leaving friday but they want me to stay longer so i dont know whats going on....
So uhh this is for Tiffany ME AND KARI HAD SEX or in the words of KARI MADE LOVE CAUSE IT SOUNDS BETTER but either way yeah uhhh so you need to tell ur sources that i know for a fact that she doesnt get around too much cause i can barely fit two fingers in her.. SORRY BABY!
As for the drama its gone nomore dramatic incidents while im here..
anways im out ho's peace

I <3 Kari...

Mhmmm!!! (NO DRAMA NOW)

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 04:02:03 GMT

~GODDAMN HOW CUTE THESE PEEPS ARE~

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:32:43 GMT

My Kittie..

..arent they cute as hell together?

.......Yeah Shes A Hottie!!

.... Katy showing me some love..

.....FUCKING WANKSTA!

....Aww Kari...

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 21:45:54 GMT

Yesterday was my daddy's birthday so my mom was all sad and shit.. It was pretty much a sad ass day where noone wanted to do shit but sit around and cry their fucking eyeballs out.. Im talking to katy online right now mhmm she loves calling me names.. But its okay cause the world does it.. Today me and jessy kinda got into it yeah were like a married couple at times but its okay though...

~my kari~

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 07:19:52 GMT

Kari made this for me!

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 19:59:20 GMT

I LOVE YOU PUNK...<3

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 08:36:42 GMT

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 07:15:12 GMT

You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.

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Sun, 27 Mar 2005 03:57:52 GMT

my hottie

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 01:20:53 GMT

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 16:47:24 GMT

Person you talk most on the phone with : Katie or Jami
What color is your bedroom : white with blue and pink stripes
Do you use an alarm clock : fck no
Have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex : yes
Ever sunbathed in the nude : yes
Window seat or aisle : window seat duh
What's your sleeping position: I dont know
What kind of bed do you like : a huge one
In hot weather do you use a blanket : nothing at all
Do you snore : hmm dont know ask katie
Do you sleepwalk : no
Do you talk in your sleep : no
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : nah
How about the light on : nope
Do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on : no

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU
Watched Bambi : umm when i was 7
Talked on the phone (to whom): last night with Katy
Punched someone: mhmm

MUSIC
Is music important to you : yes
Do you sing? : nah
Have you ever had a song written about you? no
What song makes you cry? hmm not sure
What song makes you happy? rap music
What do you like to listen to before bed? rap music

SPELL YOUR NAME USING BAND NAMES:NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

APPEARANCE
HEIGHT: 5'2
HAIR COLOR: black with red hightlights
SKIN COLOR: white
PIERCINGS: bellybutton,tongue,eyebrow, ears
TATTOOS: 3

RIGHT NOW
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: black and gray
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Little Lower
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: coca cola
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: sunny
HOW ARE YOU? awake be happy damn it

DO YOU
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: no
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: uhh according
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no

FAVORITES
TV SHOW: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
MAGAZINE: none
POP: Coca Cola
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: sitting on my ass, bars, PARTYING
RAPPER: Ying Yang Twins

HAVE YOU
BROKEN THE LAW: Yes.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yeah
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Yeah.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: Yeah
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes.

LOVE
BOY/GIRLFRIEND: Your Mother
CHILDREN: No
BEEN IN LOVE?: eh yeah
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE:yeah
BEEN HURT?: Yes.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET?: notta
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR A FEW DAYS: Yeah

RANDOM
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: Uhh dont know anymore
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Uhh a Rap Mix
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: blue
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: lalalalala
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: When Im drunk
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I dont know

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME
TIME YOU CRIED?: awhile
GOT A REAL LETTER?: Angie on Valentines Day
TIME YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: MTV while talking to katy
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Boogeyman

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 19:34:16 GMT

Shit with Ashley is all fucked up.. She got online and was talking to me earlier but when her mom got home she had to hurry up and get offline.. I feel like im sneaking around again I mean its okay but Ive never had to do that shit before well I have but not in along ass time.... Things are just getting hectic thats all.. She says shes moving to Logan with one of her friends so shell be closer to work but I dont know if things are going to change...
I just give up Id rather be alone then have to deal with all of this shit.. I dont know whats worth it and whats not anymore.. Its like I move on for no reason at all.. My emotions are all fucked up not that havent been before but they are worse now than they have ever been... And the sad part is its making me soo moody towards others Ive done snapped at mom and Jessy so much that neither one of them can stand to even talk to me.. And those are the two people I love more than anything in this world.....

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 17:10:13 GMT

I think Jessy is still pissed at me over the my whole mom thing yesterday..Arghh...I dont know what to do anymore to make her happy or whatever.. Krista thinks I need to not talk to her for a couple of days and see if that makes things better but I dont think it would.. Cause thats like me going into MIA or some shit.. Weve kinda been arguing these past couple of days and it bothers me.. I went to bed kinda early last night like an hour after jessy did and ive not done that in along time...

(UNTITLED)

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 04:45:26 GMT

When I was in love with you,
Then I was clean and brave,
And miles around the wonder grew
How well did i behave.

And now the fancy passes by,
And nothing will remain,
And miles around they'll say that I
Am not quite the same..

A VALEDICTION

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 03:46:58 GMT

if we must part,
then let it be like this,
Not heart on heart,
Nor with the useless anguish of a kiss;
But touch of mine hand and say;
'Until tomorrow or some other day,
If we must part.'

Words are so weak
When love has been so strong:
Let silence speak:
'Life is a little while,and love is long;
A time to sow and reap,
And After a long time to sleep,
But words are weak.'